Dear Amaya.

How's it there? How are your parents and your siblings? I hope you guys are all settled there already. I hope no one's fighting there anymore. You guys enjoying there with the Cabaruses and the Atayde's(our cousins)? This always is the normal introduction to most long distance letters. But then, I don't know why I bother asking these questions if I know I'm never gonna hear or see a reply from you. Now I also know that there is not enough space to write everything I want to in just one page. So all I can do is write general things. Things for you to know and keep in mind.

But nevertheless, I want you to know how much I missed you. It really hurts when a close relative just leaves in two months notice. I know it hurt a lot of us, and it also hurt you. I didn't want to accept the fact that you were really going to leave. I thought maybe you didn't have to leave. But I knew that at least you were heading for a change. I was headed for nowhere. Same place, same school, same people, same surroundings. I guess that's why I didn't want you to leave. But I want you to know that I was happy for you. I know you enjoyed your life here, you were a lucky person. But I also knew that you could have had a much better life. That's why now, I hope you are having the time of your life where you are now. You deserve it! Make use of everything you have and don't take things for granted. Love the people around you and please be careful.

I know I've always been looking forward to seeing you again. We had plans of visiting you all there for the next summer. But as of now, this is my last day on earth and this is my last letter to anyone. I chose to write it to you because I haven't had enough time to tell you how I feel because you left us here.

You might think that I was mad that you left. No, I wasn't. It taught me a lot of things. I've learned to let go of things I love dearly. It took a while, a very long night of weeping, but I made it. This has changed a big part of me. I know now that we mustn't get too attached to things, especially material things. Material things aren't always there for a certain person. But then, people are. Even if you aren't here physically, you can still cheer me up and help me just by being you. Sure, e-mail, chatting and webcams aren't everything, but you're still the cousin I love and you're still there to be a part of my life. Even though the time differences are really hard to put up with, I'm glad we can still keep in touch.

I guess my time with you (physically) was up and it was about time that other people got their share of you. Your leaving wasn't the end of everything. I still had my life to push through with and I was able to do it without you. It's been... what? Three years now? And I know both of us are doing good. You've told me all your kwento and it really seems like you're having fun. I am too. It's been great here. I wouldn't have asked God for a better life than what he has given me.

Anyway, take care of your mom and dad ok? Make sure they don't fight anymore. Watch out for Mikel too. Make sure he doesn't get into trouble or grow up to be a bad boy ok? And watch yourself li'l cuz coz some things in life, you can never undo. But don't make that stop yourself from enjoying okay? Still, keep us all in mind in everything you do. Love ya! Bye

Crunchy:D